When I Woke Up Today

When I woke up today,
I awoke feeling indifferent;
I wished my mom goodbye as she left for work.
Then I went to brush my teeth,
After doing so I looked up;
The water was flowing from the tap,
I saw myself in the mirror;
I then wondered would today be any better.

Somehow deep inside me knew;
Today wouldn’t be different.
I look around;
My house is empty,
Then I remember a very vivid memory-
My father’s in the kitchen,
I smile at that memory.

I look towards the kitchen,
I feel like I see him there with his pots and pans;
Busy preparing today’s meal.
I laugh remembering his antics in the kitchen.

I suddenly feel alive,
Then I hear him;
“Brush your teeth and change we’re going for breakfast!”’
I realize my feet are wet;
The water was left running and its overflowing.
My heart starts hurting,
I think I hear it crack even more.
I awaken from my day dream,
I realize again that I’m alone.

Looking at my father’s photo,
I smile but tears start to flow;
I miss him and his laughter,
It used to be something normal to hear him laugh but now it all seems so quiet.
Life seems an empty vessel now,
Deep down I believe it’ll be alright;
I’m sure his around and keeping an eye on us.


Mommy and little sis return home,
We have dinner and laugh as we eat;
But as its time to sleep,
I feel alone again.
Now here I sit,
Writing about today’s events,

It’s become a routine;
It’s so mechanical to me,
So when I wake up tomorrow;
I’ll be hopeful things will be different,
Different than when I woke up today.