My Pain and Decision

As tears run dry,
So does hope;
And my will to continue,
Fades away.

I still want tomorrow to be different,
Bit as I see what lies ahead;
Thoughts of running away and death,
Taka place in my mind.

It’s right; it’s wrong!
An impasse that has a hold on me,
Prayer? Patience? Perseverance?
I believed in them, but not anymore.

All that is A JOKE,
Pain? Hurt?
That’s reality,
I suffer with it every day.

A monster that’s me,
I hate myself!
A change;
Is it possible?

I wait,
Till it’s my time to perish;
When all that hurts end,
And that’s left are wonderful memories.